grumble grumble grumble

things have gotten exceedingly crappy exceedingly fast, while the boats I've been in have gone exceedingly slow.  Yesterday we did 4x750m in the afternoon, and I was stroking, and we got doored on every single piece.  And by doored I mean open water down.  This morning they put moved me back to 4 seat and made a number of other switches between the boats, and did some battle paddle/kill and drill.  The other boat was definitely getting more run than we were, especially on some of the drilling.  

Last night I was kinda freaking out about making the boat, as things have definitely become much less fun in the last 24 hours.  Ive calmed down a bit now, but I am still pretty pissed off, and miserable.  I am gonna go be emo for a while.  I did decide that if I dont make the boat I am going to buy a bicycle and ride back across the country. fingers crossed.